*BIG SIGH*

Aggghhhhhh.. Tech was such a mess in today's show. People forgot their assignments and just did other things. I really want to blame them, but the workers' work always reflects how the manager is, so obviously, it's my fault. I'm really tense when I'm under stress, when things don't go properly when you think they should. GAHHH..

First, I lose my two BEST techies. They were so good, followed orders so well, and did their jobs so smoothly. I felt so assured with them there, but then their parents wouldn't let them work the play. It'll be alright, I thought. I'll just find some other people to cover for them. It won't be that hard; all it is is rolling out a balcony.

Things go smoothly Act I. During intermission, I don't know what happened, I guess it was the pressure of doing things right that caused a techie to start moving the set WHICH IS NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN because the set is supposed to stay the same. So we spend about 10 minutes or so trying to put everything back where it's supposed to be without touching the curtains but a substitute techie that someone recommended to me keeps on touching them when I continuously told him not to and he keeps answering with "I'M NOT I'M NOT" while touching them. AGGGHHHHHHH. I am very bitchy when things are messed up.

BUT THEN I LOSE EITO-KUN. OMG Eito-kun is sooo precious to me and I cannot believe I just lost it. I start frantically running everywhere searching for it on stage and I just can't find it. Anywhere. It's nowhere. I am about to cry but I know I can't because I'm running the show backstage and I need to stay calm for everyone so no one gets nervous. I ask the techies to help me find it but only a few actually care. I give up and just sit tight, hoping it'll show up.

Act II has all the big scene changes. I decide to calm down because tension is not what I need. Finally, the scene change comes along, AND NO ONE KNOWS WHAT TO DO. OMGOMGOMG I was freaking out. First of all, a techie didn't go do what I told him to and instead did what I told him not to do and my two new balcony movers didn't know what was going on. I'm not blaming them though because it's their first time but they were just standing there and it was making me really really tense. That scene change was SOOOO messy. I think the second time around it went well. I guess all my bitchy rants at them helped.

After the show ends, the techie that messed up some set stuff (it wasn't visible to the audience though so that was okay) finds Eito-kun under the rug. I WAS SO HAPPY. It was all gray and dirty because it had been under the rug but just as long as I had it.

Dude, after every show for everything, I am always so tense and just not calm or chill, like how I'm supposed to be. I'm pretty sure everyone hates me after the show because I keep ordering them around because they won't listen to me, even though they're supposed to and all. AGGGHHHHHH Tomorrow better be sooo much better. AGGHHH and I thought everything was fine because rehearsal was perfect.

I wish I was a good leader, so then people would actually bother to listen to me and not talk back at me. I have the authority and they know I do because they repeat it all the time but for some reason, when it comes down to it, they don't seem to listen. By 'they' though, I'm just talking about the substitute techie. I'm almost mad at the people who recommended him to me. The techies who were with me for a while listen.

I hate how I'm like this. I just can't seem to calm down when things are tight. GAHHHHH. Now I understand why my mom acts this way. I'm pretty sure I got it from her because she acts like this all the time around us.

♣ Shrin
♣ 10:46 PM eastern time on December 6, 2007
♣ MOOD: GAHHADSFKJSDK

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HALLELUJAH CHANCE

It was so good. So good. Thank you so much. So good.

There were a few mishaps here and there but they added to the humor which was good. So good.

Only thing was that techies were runninggg... after I had told them millions of times to walk when on stage. They keep telling me "I KNOW I KNOW" but they still just don't listen. DDD: They have to walk or else they look nervous to the audience. Which is what the audience got.  Tiffany and Livia told me the techies looked so jittery when on stage. Aw man. I told them. ):

One of them zoomed on stage to take a hat off and then ran back and I told him to walk but he was like, "But we had to get the hat offstage really quickly before the lights come on!!" I don't think he knew that the lights are trained to not bring up lights until everyone's offstage. If someone had to go back onstage again, they would wait and then turn on lights. They are trained. I know where he was coming from though. I did something similar last year. The whole thing about being on stage though, whether it be as an actor or a techie, is not to let the audience know anything's wrong with the show. If you suddenly run, then people'll be like, "Oohh, they forgot somethinggg..." We want them to feel assured that the set change is going properly. DDD:

I think I know what teachers have to put up with now. Kids. My techies are basically mostly freshmen. I wish they still believed in and were scared of the fact that upperclassmen'll beat 'em up if they don't listen to us. ):

But overall, the outcome made me happy. I was calm today! (: And I got to be a good leader! I used the stuff I learned from last year's stage manager which made me feel like I knew what I was doing. Thank you.

♣ Shrin
♣ 10:27 PM eastern time on December 7, 2007
♣ MOOD: extremely pleased

Go again.

You give me two straight weeks of hecticity (Is that a word?) and leave this weekend with NO HOMEWORK. WHATSOEVER. I am free to do whatever and actually got stuff done! I finished my entry for the X-mas card competition (Dude, that thing was like due today and I finally finished! XD), started on Christmas cards and gifts, and actually cleaned the floor of my room (Well, Mommy kinda forced me to so I had no choice D:)! I'm very impressed with myself.

We had to freakin' order Anthony's Christmas gift online. And that took us about a few hours to find because what Anthony wants seemingly is very popular at the moment. I had never heard of it but it was sold out online everywhere and when I went to Toys 'R Us, we asked a person who worked there for it and then a second later, another kid asks for the same thing. I was like, whoa. Well, Toys 'R Us didn't really have the right one so we had to go online for it. And all the cheap ones were sold out. The only ones that were left were about $30-$40. D: Um, the thing really isn't worth that much. We searched EVERYWHERE until we finally found one at $20-something! Altogether with shipping was about $29-ish but still, better than nothing. The site said they promise it'll be here by Christmas Eve. DD: Goodness. It better.

Since I'm extremely in the Christmas mood this year for some reason, I'm gonna go out and buy candy tomorrow to hand out at school. :oV Mmhm.

♣ Shrin
♣ 08:48 PM eastern time on December 15, 2007
♣ MOOD: good

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Merry Christmas 2007!!!

What I got for Christmas so far:

-Gir slippers
-Big Bang 2008 planner

Peace out guys! If you haven't gotten a Christmas gift from me yet, expect one sometime this week. xD

♣ Shrin
♣ 03:06 PM eastern time on December 25, 2007

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