I guess I'm kind of feeling depressed for a reason, since I'm annoying when I don't realize it until after I do annoying things. Whyy?

School weekends totally make me anorexic because it's the excuse to sleep late and wake up late, so I can't have a proper schedule to eat my meals, causing me to skip out on a couple. I am starving right now, but there's no decent meal I can eat at this hour, and I don't seem to be doing much about it. I just ate a Clementine orange, but those things are freakin' tiny that they do nothing for me. Depression is not good.

I really did think I was over emo-ness, but I'm not. Boys really know how to mess with girls.

I, for some reason, thought that I was unable to move on from things, since I constantly think about them, but what happened yesterday totally showed that I had moved on. I talked to him on the phone, and I didn't really feel anything. It was just normal. I don't know what happened, but I guess that's what moving on feels like. Wow. Didn't think I was capable of it but I guess I am.

3 Good Things About Myself:

1. I have an above-average intelligence. Therefore, I can somewhat get ahead in the world and don't have to struggle as much in some areas.

2. I am able to put myself out there to be a leader in certain occasions. I may call myself "shy", but I can be somewhat social when I need to, instead of totally being a recluse.

3. I like to be creative in how I dress. It's kind of hard for me to do sometimes, and a lot of the time I'm lazy and don't do it, but liking the way I dress gives me a different sense of confidence and that's good. I like to feel different.

DDD: That was supposed to help me feel better but I'm still thinking about my depression as I type...

♣ Shrin
♣ 12:00 AM eastern time on September 1, 2008
♣ MOOD: depressed

Go again.

Since I'm still awake at this hour and haven't talked about senior classes yet, I might as well do so and double-post.

1. Tech Theater - Mrs. Cope is really nice and funny. She has a lot of stuff in mind for the class which seems fun, making it almost like a real class :O lol.
ppl - Amelia

2. Office Aide - I work in the counselors' office and so far, deliver tons of schedules. I think it's kind of fun going around the school because sometimes I get to go into my friends' classes, but I don't get to stay for very long. ): There used to be two office aides including me but the other one just kind of disappeared one day and never came back so now it's only me. Oh well, I don't really like splitting the work. D:
ppl - It is the freakin' counselors' office. No one.

3. Environmental Science - Mr. Hook was pretty cool last year when I met him but right now, being in his class is kind of.. boring, I hate to admit. I realized science really really isn't my thing because it just bores me. I think most of the people in the class took it to be with their friends because we're all in our own (big) groups.
ppl - Callie, Lauren B, Lauren F, Keli, Tiffany, Livia, Tim, Caleb, Claudia

4. English - I have Mrs. Jay, thank goodness. But I've been making some pretty unintelligent comments in the class so far which is not good for an impression. I realized I've totally lost my analyzing ability over the summer, so the ICE on Friday totally beasted me. Assigned seats on Friday )):!! I couldn't sit next to my friends.
ppl - Erin, Claudia, Keli, Ariel, Tim

5. Calc BC - OMG, in the beginning, I had NO ONE in my class and there were only 10 of us. Eventually, as schedules got changed, Lauren F and Erin moved in. I sit with Lauren. Erin's on the other side of the classroom. Mrs. Hanley's a good teacher I must say (and she has forgotten me from last year :D!) but the thing is, the stuff she teaches in class is NOT on the homework like, ever, which is kind of a problem.
ppl - Lauren F, Erin

C Lunch - Not having anyone in Calc meant not having anyone in lunch. Lunch was sooo bad the first few days. Reminded me of freshman year at Elkins all over again except this time I'm supposed to know people!! DD: I eventually found Tran to sit with and Brandon and Joseph eventually found us, so the four of us kind of formed a little table. We ended up moving to the band guys and now that Lauren F has moved into the lunch, she's there too and I can talk about more things now!
ppl - Tran, Lauren F, Brandon, Joseph

6. Study Hall - Hey, I have Mrs. Bailey! She's sweet, but since she's new, she tries to follow the rules. Everyday, we have to write down what our objective for the class is though, which kind of forces us to sort of work in there, but we all get distracted very easily. We have this German exchange student in our class! Exchange students are cute because they're just getting used to the American school system along with its students, who are usually very "different" from what they're used to. d: Plus, Jacques is in my class and you kind of have to know him to know he makes a Study Hall "interesting".
ppl - Samee, Wilbur

7. Government - Mrs. Ellington is hilarious. Enough said. We didn't talk about any government for like the first four days. Sadly, day 5 was a quiz. ):
ppl - Callie, Lauren B, Claudia, Courtney, Kenny, Tiffany, Ariel

My after schools are so busy as well, since Theater got a headstart right away. My only free after school was Wednesday. I won't be having anymore of those anymore. ): Oh well, I'm not really dreading after school as much as I did last year anymore. But then again, rehearsals haven't started yet...

I guess I'm feeling better now then. :)

♣ Shrin
♣ 01:10 AM eastern time on September 1, 2008
♣ MOOD: better

Go again.

So I decide to read my horoscope just for kicks and giggles and here's what I get:

"A friend might ask you to go out. Since you are already comfortable around him, why not start a new love?"

Dude, not good for the heart, especially in my situation. I can easily fall for things like this.

I went to other astrology sites and they said similar things. D:

♣ Shrin
♣ 12:15 AM eastern time on September 26, 2008
♣ MOOD: ...D:
♣ MUSIC: Color by Liu Xin

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