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What really is a good-bye though?

I spent today with Iris, since it was her last day. Of course, we spent it as we would any other day, sitting and eating and talking and reading magazines at her kitchen table. We watched 4 episodes of How I Met Your Mother and spent at least an hour trying to figure out the Rubix Cube algorithms, haha.

But when it was about time for me to leave, I felt sad for a moment when I said good-bye because thoughts of college came up, but then everything felt normal again.

It's not because I'm not going to miss her though. I realized that my friendships with my Austin friends were based on distance. I spent the older days of our youth not being within 15 minutes of them. We didn't get many chances to see each other because we lived in different parts of the county. We were friends because we were able to still be friends despite not seeing each other all the time.

That's why when I said good-bye to Iris today, it felt different from Lauren and Callie's good-byes. Iris and I have always had occasional hang outs, so it didn't feel like that big of a change. We are just moving even further away now, but we're used to not being that close anyway.

Same thing with the rest of my Austin friends. I texted Carolyn and Linda their good-byes, but I didn't feel like I was losing them. I called Tiffany while she was packing. As for Kathryn and Melinda, they're still in Houston, so I feel like they're still here anyway. Their good-byes come when I leave.

I don't know how long I'll call them my Austin friends, since they technically don't go to Austin anymore. I feel they need a different collective name from my Elkins friends because they are definitely a different group of people. I guess as I grow older, they might be called my middle school friends. Aww.

Go again.

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